Every morning I wake up and discover that I am human. I become aware of it, like every other conscious formed representation around me. Every morning I am ambivalent about this, knowing I did not ask for this experiencing. It presents itself like a recurring dream. Then, I settle into the reality of it, that this day is present and must be experienced. Experienced either as is or as I choose to perceive it. Not everyone chooses this reality or even wants it, though many convince themselves daily that this is what they are doing. So, they entrench themselves in an illusion that some how this is a manifestation of their mind or spirit.
So wish this were so. Because if this were true, I would have eliminated the temporal-ness of it through illness and mortality a long time ago. I would have eliminated the imbalances of human living existence throughout the world. I would have eliminated the representations of self oriented hate, greed, and envy that people turn into acts. Who seriously wants experiencings of these things? We tell ourselves that somehow we are actually beyond this, and we experience it to learn something. But, honestly, this is our reaction and rationalization to Being in Form that we did not self-intend to be, isn’t it?
Like a droplet of energy water we each individually are. Self-aware of our existence, full of imaginings and hopes over our influence, but all the while only a self-conscious perception of the entire energy pond. The more individualized self-perception ceases, the more wholeness is perceived. A coalescing of energy that may reach a point of actual defining effect upon the nature of the pond. So, long as change is attempted through the limitation of individual perception, it is limited and localized at best, if actually achieved at all. It’s the paradox of life. To experience real change requires the real loss of self into the whole. It requires increased energy.
It takes energy to create, and to create means having a thought, an image with an emotion attached, and influencing the greater perceptive energy within and around us. Our achieving of change is dependant upon the universal balance of energy that must persist for formed life to continue to exist. The universe, this pool of energy beyond time and within it, is bigger than us. Is what we are in microcosm and in span of time. It takes all of us together to take thought and make it reality, within our limited space. It takes the influence of the total energy that gives rise to our experiencing of Being. And there are no guarantees as to what the results are going to actually be.
Not sure why I’m sharing this in this moment. Other than these words flowed through a human organism that doesn’t truly get this reality. A momentary self-evident Human that doubts his self-generated perception of it.
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“Conscious life began with an observation. An act of observing, which led to an act of thinking about what is being observed. This relationship between observing and thinking is what drove our species towards creating a fictive language. A cognitive-based language reality that we often mistake as more real than the self-evident reality itself. This act of ‘thinking’ leads all thinking-creatures to an incessant need to be doing, beyond the basic genetic needs for survival, and this is especially the case with our human primate species. Like each cell is an important, though brief, part of the entire body of a nefesh chayah, a “living breathing-creature”, so are we individually – in body, mind, and consciousness – a briefly existing, but necessary, part of the ever-changing body of the human species. A species that is ever-growing more aware of itself consciously.” – Joseph T Farkasdi
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Someone felt I should take a look at the following comment, quoted directly below, shared on a modern religion’s social media page. Your thoughts? Know we all wish it so.
“By paying attention to the way you feel, and then choosing thoughts that feel the very best, you are managing your own vibration, which means you are controlling your own point of attraction —which means you are creating your own reality. It’s such a wonderful thing to realize that you can create your own reality without sticking your nose in everybody else’s, and that the less attention you give to everybody else’s reality, the purer your vibration is going to be —and the more you are going to be pleased with what comes to you. — Abraham”
Hmmm, this presumes your reality is not shared by everyone else. How presumptive. Yes, from a mental perspective, it sure appears this way, and in a perceptive way we really live in our own unique perspective of the world. Which through attention to one’s feeling and thoughts we can manipulate. But, does your reality change? Or, is it just your perception on what is reality, as is already?
How much do you think you really control, beyond the feeling based illusion of reality in your mind? (The mind, a coherent pattern of energy that perceives itself and is generated from the filtering of constant sensory input by the brain. Physical and mental are one. Spirit is the emotional response to this.) If we really create our reality, then why are there are rules outside us that limit and define such pure intents – whether it will happen, how it will happen, when it will happen, if it actually happens?
If we really create rather than manipulate, then why does governance of a universe exist, that places the order of all above our wishful thinking? Maybe we control with our minds, even dream, but we create with our hands. Translation of thought to physical action. So, far the universe has shown my perception that it is partial to all form without regard, only regarding it’s own balance of pure transforming energy in this process. But, nice thought.
Wish every day I possessed that much energy to change the real world itself, with such a deep felt deep imagined vision, not just my perception of it. But, how do we do that? Maybe by stopping our believing in the fantasy and seeing the purpose of fantasy in itself. It starts within us, but it takes all of us! Beyond this, it’s just fantasy.
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Joseph T Farkasdi · February 28, 2018 at 6:05 pm
I have been presented recently with some interesting questions, while having discussions with others online. Here are the questions, and my responses to them:
Why do atheists reject religion?
Being an atheist does not automatically equate to a rejection of religion. The definition of an atheist is any human who does not have belief in the existence of a human-imagined supernatural god or force (a theist conception). One can be an atheist and still practice a religion. Zen Buddhism is an excellent example of this, and so is the practice of Humanism. Many atheists are anti-sectarian (meaning, against specific established religions, like some of the founders of this U.S. nation were). But, those who are atheist aren’t necessarily anti-religious, and some even do engage in religious ritual and practice. Many atheists (maybe most), including I, do stand against the inherent evil of proselytizing end-time indoctrination religions (you know, the C & I competition for global dominance). Show me where in history where these religions have done more good than outright evil. Seriously? I’ll wait for the well-researched factual answers to this question. I personally believe the following: It is better to be an ethical socially active humane atheist, than it is to be a follower of any theistic religion. We don’t need a god to tell us to be good. And many religions have a very questionable outlook on what “good” is to begin with. It’s usually very exclusive, divisive, and self-serving, benefiting only a particular group at the demonized expense of all the other humans on this planet. Again, if you have the heart and openness of mind to look, explore honestly the history of humankind on this planet.
The Bible says we’ve been given ‘free will’, so how can you not agree with this?
Actually we don’t have free will, according to the compounding researched findings of neuroscience. We just tell ourselves that we do – partly because it feels good to think so, and partly because it fits so many of our human invented fictions. Speaking of such fictions, the monotheistic concept of free will is rather perverse, if you pause and really reflect on it. Take a close look at it: A human-imagined god creates humans to serve and worship him, but gives them “free will” to disobey this inherited role, and punishes with damnation all the ones that do so – all to show to his creation his might and glory, of course. This is the very definition of a self-centered, egotistical, power-hungry, and quite evil mindset, in my opinion. There is no real empathy for the “created” in this concept, and “free will” is conditioned to slavish loyal obedience (disguised as a self-accepted choice) to “God’s” will, as interpreted from a theology’s present understanding of a religious book. But, as I said, neuroscience is showing that it is the unconscious that actually rules our thoughts and behaviors, and the highly creative conscious that takes all the applause/blame, and that “thinks” it is an individual soul, is just along for the ride. A simple reflection tool that the unconscious has generated and uses to assess its perception of reality around us, as gathered through our senses.
If you don’t believe in free will and don’t believe in a creator God, then what do you believe in?
All humans have a belief, a human imagined fiction that we subscribe to in order to make ordered sense to the world. Our greatest uniqueness as a primate species is in our ability to collectively share in socially supported fictions. But, this does not elevate us beyond our inherent primate nature. For all our talk of good and bad, of ethics and morality, we are the most inherently violent, indifferent, and self-serving of all the member species of our primate family. But, there is still hope for us. It is not in the words of our imagined fictions about this world, but in actions that result from this – and from our curiosity. Eventually, and maybe rather soon, we will assist nature and evolve ourselves out of our inherent nature as a species. Either that, or we will destroy this planet and send all life into extinction, including ourselves, because of our heartfelt, believed in, and worshipped fictions. But, this is the reality, as it simply is.
What you want to know is do I believe in a higher power or force that connects us all? I believe reality is this force. We are all momentary drops of water, briefly consciously aware of itself, until reabsorbed into this energy ocean we call life. I find peace in quiet awareness of reality as it is, without the human fictions added to it. All humans experience moments of beauty and feelings of awe, when we let go of thinking for a moment, embracing silently the oneness that simply is. When our human species is replaced in this universe by an entirely different cognitively creative and self-aware species, capable of the fictions we can create and believe so mightily in, this universal thought experiment will continue on. Hopefully, that species will be less inherently violent, indifferent, intolerant, and self-deluded (self-righteous), than we have proven to be as a species. They may succeed where we have continuously failed.
Joseph T Farkasdi · February 11, 2019 at 5:46 pm
Nur ekzistas la ĉeestanta. Ni estas vivantaj ĉeloj kunvivantaj en bestoj. Ni homaj primatoj estas nur specialaj en niaj propraj mensoj, sed ni ne diferencas al iu ajn alia besto, kiu vivas kaj spiras. Ni ekzistas kaj konscias pri tio, ĉar ni naskiĝis. Ni estis nenio antaŭ nia naskiĝo, hazarda ebleco ne garantiita. Ni fariĝos nenio pli, kiam la spiro de vivo ĉesos ene de ni. La universo ne perdas, reciklita en la kosmon ĉe ĉiu materiala nivelo. Ne ekzistas suferado antaŭ naskiĝo, ĉar ni ankoraŭ ne ekzistas. Ne estas suferado post nia morto, ĉar ni ne plu ekzistas. Ni nur suferas dum vivaj, konsciaj pri nia malforta kaj tempora krea breve ekzisto. Dum vivanta, unufoje tio estas realigita, la suferado estas komprenebla kaj bearable.
There is only the present. We are living cells coexisting in animal form. We human primates are only special in our own minds, but we are no different from any other animal that lives and breathes. We exist and are aware of this, because we were born. We were nothing before our birth, a random possibility not guaranteed. We will become nothing once more, when the breath of life ceases within us. The universe wastes not, recycled into the cosmos at every material level. There is no suffering before birth, because we do not yet exist. There is no suffering after our death, because we exist no more. We only suffer while alive, while aware of our fragile and temporal creaturely brief existence. While alive, once this is realized, the suffering is understandable and bearable.